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Baby Needs & Infant Essentials Check List

2009-01-30T13:04:00.000-08:00

Baby Diapers: What To Use Cloth or Disposable?

Many babies cannot wear disposable diapers: the plastic causes rashes; perfumes or chemicals purporting to contribute to skin care and the general airless quality of disposable diapers increases diaper rash and allergies. Disposable diapers can cause sores, staph infections and fungal infections in babies: disposables trap heat, increasing bacterial growth. Some disposables contain a super-absorbent gel called sodium polyacrylate, which is deadly to pets and causes allergic reactions in people; dioxin has found its way into diapers, as its used to bleach the paper components. Parents who want healthier babies have preferred to ditch plastic high-tech disposables in favor of safer products.

Better Absorbency in Todays Cloth Diapers

Modern cloth diapers have increased in absorbency, and manufacturers have done away with the need for pins: diapers are fitted with Velcro, elastic or straps. Diapers are made of absorbent fabrics, so diaper covers are often a must-have. They cant be called inexpensive, but when you compare the cost to the number of disposable diapers needed every day, they seem more affordable. Cloth diapers are more work: they must be emptied, placed in hampers or diaper pails and laundered. Washing cloth diapers takes time, and some daycares refuse to use them. You may start to feel like your whole life consists of changing dirty diapers and cleaning babies bottom! But, if you are a new parent and still have some energy left for environmental conservation, the single most important thing you can do is switch to cloth diapers or biodegradable disposables.

Best Baby Bottle Choices: Chemical Free Glass vs. Plastic Bottles

Plastic baby bottles have been considered the best choice because they couldnt break, but with recent discoveries of the dangers of a chemical in plastic called bisphenol A (BPA). A small amount of BPA has been shown to damage hormonal systems in males and females, contributing to reproductive diseases and cancer.

Choosing a tempered glass baby bottle or sippy cup (tempered glass is much harder to break) and a clear silicon nipple (buy one made without nitrosamines) are the safest options for a chemical-free bottle. Latex nipples are also an option, and some babies are safe with them, but others develop latex allergies. The nipple size determines flow size, which should be matched to the age of your child: an infant takes a smaller nipple and lower flow size than a toddler. Schedule regular nipple changes as your child grows. Nipples come in different shapes, too. A newborn with problems breastfeeding may prefer a different kind of teat on the bottle: you may need to experiment to find the right design for your child.

Baby Crib Buying Guide:

For new parent buying a baby crib for your infant, you want to combine safety with a long-lasting, durable piece of beautiful furniture you'll be glad to someday hand down to your child. Baby cribs come in all sorts of styles, from the traditional canopy crib to baby beds made with springs like regular beds only with the addition of rails.To convertible cribs.

Bassinets and Moses Baskets

A Moses basket is a woven basket with handles while the bassinet is typically a plastic woven basket on a stand. These are not an essential buy, but they certainly can make life easier in the first few months. You can use a crib from day one but both a Moses basket and bassinet are portable between rooms and both items fit easily into your own bedroom if this is where you want your baby to sleep during the early days. These are best for babies up to 3-4 months or until the baby is mobile.

Cribs

Cribs are suitable for babies from birth.
A NOTE ABOUT TWINS: If you have twins, many pediatricians recommend putting them in the same crib for the first four months.

Drop-Side Crib

Many styles have mechanisms that allow you to lower or raise the side with one hand, while cradling your baby with the other. Cribs with one drop-side or a ‘static’ drop-side tend to be sturdier than cribs with two drop-sides.

Crib with Adjustable-Height Mattress Base

Most cribs have several height levels for the mattress – the highest setting is for when the baby is newborn and gradually as the baby grows you lower the mattress height to prevent the baby from climbing or falling out.

Crib with Castors

Two or four castors make your crib easier to move around. At least two must be lockable, and should always be locked when not in use.

Teething Rails for Cribs

Clear non-toxic plastic fits over the top rail of the crib and protects your baby's gums once he's teething and has started to chew.

Convertible or Stages Cribs

Larger, with removable sides, so they can be converted into some combination of toddler bed, daybed or headboard and footboard for a full-sized bed. A good value choice, since crib beds have a longer life-span.

Travel Cribs

Folding cribs are perfect for traveling - some also double as a playpen. It's a good idea to get your baby used to sleeping in the crib for a few nights at home, before you travel. Many styles have removable, washable covers and fold away into a travel bag.

What is the Sound of a Heart Breaking?

2008-11-16T21:03:00.000-08:00

It is the sound of someone curled up in a tiny ball crying softly in the night, the sound of the first unwanted teardrop touching your skin, it's the sound of a telephone that doesn't ring, the sound of regret pounding inside your brain with every heartbeat, it's the whispers of the toy animals he gave you.

It's the shuffling of feet walking away from you, the sound of your soul shattering into a million pieces at recognizing the word "goodbye," it’s the soundtrack of memories torturing you, it's the sound of feeble hands trying to push back the obstinate hands of time, it's the sound of a cherub's dying breath, the sound of all those years disappearing in the vortex of Cupid's kitchen sink, it's the unrelenting plaintive baby meows of an abandoned kitten outside an ignoring door.

It's the sound of the rain that doesn't ever stop, the sound of all the doors shutting and closing in your face at the same time, of raging, howling storms in the night when there's no one there to hold you, the sound of your voice as it screams back at you, the echo of "I love yous" burning holes in you, the sound your heart makes as it tells you to lie still because nothing you will ever do will matter without love.

The sound of the waves of the polluted beach you went to as it moves from the shore and crashes inside your mind, of the sniffles that make up your pathetic "SOS-to-the-world," the cracking of the brittle black-red petals from the sidewalk vendor roses he gave, the sound of the music he used to make going to your gut.

The sound of things in your room being thrown around and landing on the floor, the caress of kitchen knives on skin, the sound your throat makes as you swallow your saltiest tear.

It's the sound of your own voice calling out to someone who isn't there, of dying birds getting splattered on a city pavement, of terms of endearment used a hundred times a day struggling to crawl into a vacuum of forgetfulness, it's the sound of your own sobs keeping you company, it's the cold, uncaring stillness of the air you share your space with.

Destruction isn't always as noisy as bombs exploding. Sometimes the ultimate catastrophes are as quiet as a feather falling on the floor of a Zen monastery. No one else can really hear your heart breaking except you.

--- Karen Kunawicz

pick-up lines for feminists

2008-11-16T18:40:00.000-08:00

making the move
at the bar

the club
the pro-choice rally
or the conference
on women's rights
in the 21st century
is no easy task
for feminists
young and old.

how do you
subtly ask for digits
while still making it
perfectly clear
that you are fine
being alone
and are certainly
not buying into the idea
that women are worthless
without a significant other?

just remember to smile.
or not.
(depending on if you
feel like it)
and try some
of these lines
on for size:

if i could rearrange
the alphabet
i would put u and i
together
and then we could
work on trying
to think outside
of this male dominated
language.

your paradigm or mine?

you're so sweet
you put hersheys
out of business.
so sweet
you can bring down
all those
bastard big businesses.

somebody better call
god/allah/buddah/
assorted goddesses/etc.
because he/she/gender neutral being
are missing an
angel/messiah/messenger.
if atheist this line may not work

did it hurt?
when you fell
from the top
of the hierarchy
when society
identified you
as a woman?

pinch me.
with consent of course.
you are so
third wave
i must be dreaming.

where have you been
all my life?
hopefully fighting
against oppressive
patriarchal systems.

your feet must be tired.
because you have been
running through my
mind and struggling
against the repressive
gender roles
that we have been
socialized into
all day.

if the personal is political
then our getting together
has the potential
to subvert the patriarchy.

what's your sign?
radical? liberal?
socialist? cultural?
eco?

if these lines fail
don't worry.
it's probably just
because our
fascist media
has embedded
said pick-up line
receiver
with the idea
that you are a
crazy
scary
man-hating
castrating
bitch.

just keep telling yourself.
if they haven't
started questioning
what society
tells them yet.

then maybe
they are not
the one
for you.
Lesley Kartali

A Full Heart

2008-11-16T18:28:00.000-08:00

When one is too hurt one cannot see others' pain, is too blind with one's own.

When one has many weights to lift, one cannot enjoy life.
When one has many expectations, one cannot be patient with others.
When one has fear, one cannot enjoy life.
When one does not give, one is making the heart lonely.
When one does not take, one is making the heart feel inferior
When one does not hope, one is shutting oneself into a tight closet.
But when one does not love, one is killing one's self.

|written by 12-year old Olivia, Berkeley, California|

"I, with a deeper instinct,
choose a man who compels my strength,
who makes enormous demands on me,
who does not doubt my courage or my toughness,
who does not believe me naive or innocent,
who has the courage to treat me like a woman."
|Anais Nin|

Empty

2008-11-16T17:57:00.000-08:00

Standing in silence, holding my breath
Disconnected and dry
And though I'm certain that there's nothing left
To hold on to, to give or to try
Some things never change, no don't ever change
And I'm feeling the cold
Thinking that we're getting older and wiser
When we're just getting old

And when you feel you're near the end
And what once burned so bright is growing dim
And when you see what's been achieved
Is there a feeling that you've been deceived?

Say a prayer for me

Help to feel the strength I did
My identity has it been taken
is my heart breaking on me?...
All my plans fell through my hands They fell...
through my hands on me...
all my dreams...
It suddenly seems,
it suddenly seems
Empty

Comes the Dawn

2008-11-10T13:38:00.000-08:00

After awhile you learn the subtle difference
Between holding a hand and chaining a soul.
And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning
And company doesn't mean security.

And you begin to understand that kisses aren't contracts
And presents aren't promises,
And you begin to accept your defeats
With your head held high and your eyes wide open.
With the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child.

You learn to build your roads
On today because tomorrow's ground
Is too uncertain for plans, and futures have
A way of falling down in midflight.
After awhile you learn that even sunshine
Burns if you get too much.

So you plant your own garden and decorate
Your own soul, instead of waiting
For someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure,
That you really are strong.
And you really do have worth.

And you learn and learn...and you learn
With every goodbye you learn.

Veronica A. Shoffstall

Love isn't when...

2008-11-03T12:10:00.000-08:00

Love isn't when you can't sleep... it's when you want to keep your eyes open...

Love isn't when you keep holding on... it's when you learn to let go...

Love isn't when you kill yourself with jealousy... it's when you understand...

Love isn't when you fall for someone... it's when you catch that person when he/she falls...

Love isn't when you see her/him everywhere... it's when you close your eyes and she is still there...

Love isn't when you tell her/him what you feel... it's when you give everything for her/his sake...

And Love isn't when you think you were blind... it's when you know she/he was wrong but you didn't mind!

12 Quick Tips to Improve Self Confidence

2008-10-31T12:56:00.000-07:00

Confidence. If we are committed to have a healthy self confidence there are many things you can do every day to boost your self confidence, each small steps that will help you to reach your goal. The good news is that self-esteem is not fixed and can be improved, try some of the steps below to boost your confidence and self-esteem.

1) Identify your successes. Everyone is good at something, so discover the things at which you excel, then focus on your talents. Give yourself permission to take pride in them. Give yourself credit for your successes. Inferiority is a state of mind in which you've declared yourself a victim. Do not allow yourself to be victimized.

2) Look in the mirror and smile. Studies surrounding what's called the "facial feedback theory" suggest that the expressions on your face can actually encourage your brain to register certain emotions. So by looking in the mirror and smiling every day, you might feel happier with yourself and more confident in the long run.

3) Exercise and eat healthy. Exercise raises adrenaline and makes one feel happier and healthier. It is certainly an easy and effective way to boost your self-confidence.

4) Turn feelings of envy or jealousy into a desire to achieve. Stop wanting what others have just because they have it; seek things simply because you want them, whether anybody else has them or not.

5) When you're feeling superbly insecure, write down a list of things that are good about you. Then read the list back. You'd be surprised at what you can come up with.

6) Don't be afraid to push yourself a bit - a little bit of pressure can actually show just how good you are!

7) You can try taking a martial arts or fitness class/course (or both). This will help build confidence and strength.

8) Invest in some new clothing and donate some of your old clothing to send a message to yourself that you both look sharp and feel sharp.

9) Try to make yourself talk positively at all times. When you hear yourself saying you can't do something, stop and say you can. Unless you try, you will never know whether you are able to or not.

10) Don't get wrapped up in your mistakes and dwell on bad points; they can contrast your good points or even give you something to improve. There's no feeling like being good at something you were really bad at.

11) Don't confuse what you have with who you are. People degrade their self worth when comparing possessions.

12) Surround yourself with nurturing friends, not overly critical individuals who make you feel inadequate or insecure. This could do great harm and damage to your self confidence.

LESSONS A WOMAN MUST LEARN

2008-10-31T12:20:00.000-07:00

1. If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn’t want you, nothing can make him stay.

2. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.

3. If you have ANY doubt in your mind about a man’s character, leave him alone.

4. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.

5. Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that’s not meant to be.

6. Don’t force an attraction.

7. Slower is better.

8. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.

9. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no you can’t “be friends.” A friend wouldn’t mistreat a friend.

10. Have faith in God regarding your relationship, but don’t let faith make you stupid. God does things decent and in order.

11. Don’t settle.

12. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.

13. If he keeps changing his mind about the relationship–take that as a BIG sign that he is unstable. Do you really want to be with a man like that?

14. Don’t stay because you think “it will get better.” You’ll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.

15. Honorable men take care of their business and aren’t involved in a whole lot of mess.

16. The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

17. There’s only one ‘reason’ a man dumps you; he doesn’t want you.

18. Avoid men who’ve got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn’t marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?

19. You really do have to kiss a few frogs before finding the prince.

20. Always put yourself and your happiness first.

21. Always have your own set of friends separate from his.

22. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up.

23. Like from the show Sex and the City, if he doesn’t call, he just isn’t that interested.

24. Be honest and upfront.

25. Know when to cut the cord, don’t be strung along.

26. Don’t fall for the “I’m confused role”. Remove yourself from the situation to let him figure things out (but don’t wait for him, move on).

27. If you want to have a clue as to how he will treat you, watch how he treats the WOMEN in his family (not just mom).

28. There’s more than physical abuse, there’s emotional and mental abuse. If he causes any of them…flee.

29. You cannot change a man’s behaviors. Change comes from within.

30. Don’t let him place rules on you that he is not willing to follow himself — double-standard.

31. Don’t EVER make him feel he is more important than you are…even if he has more education or in a better job.

32. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.

33. Demand respect and if he can’t give it, he can’t have you!

34. Don’t compete with other woman, but be aware that men are attracted to what they see.

35. If you think he is cheating, he probably is. Confront him right away and if you feel he’s lying, let him go.

36. Actions speak louder than words.

37. Never let a man define who you are.

38. Never rely on a man for compliments, look to yourself for that.

39. Never borrow someone else’s man.

40. If he cheated with you, he’ll cheat on you.

41. Just because he says he loves you, doesn’t mean that he won’t hurt you and it doesn’t mean that you are meant to be with him.

42. To use painful hard-won wisdom — ‘get it right’ the next time.

43. Know that you deserve to be the number one person in the life of the .1 person in your life.

44. Love is a verb …

45. Learn to give up your lifelong task of trying to make someone unavailable-available, someone ungiving-giving, and someone unloving-loving.

46. A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.

It Happened.......I was caught unaware...

2008-10-16T12:18:00.000-07:00

The sad reality about BETRAYAL is you won't have any closure, you will always be filled with questions. And no matter how much crying I do I can never put things back the way they used to be. I can never look the person the same way.

I'm broken, I'm not the person I used to be. I'm hurt...Every now and then I cry, I feel numb hoping that this stinging pain will go away.

My mind keeps on intellectualizing what just happened, why did it end up this way...Why did you made a fool out of me. Are you that inconsiderate... I guess your are, The transformation I'm going through is though and painful, just think of it this way... I loved you, I trusted you, everything I showed to you is true, for almost two years what I thought that we are building a strong foundation of love. It ended up crashing down because you LIED you BETRAYED me...

You said your hurt too, I doubt it... What I'm going through is painful, sleepless nights, occasional tears, gut-wrenching pain when I remember you, unbearable heart ache.

Getting over this and recovering isn't easy, but I must make it through, I must not dwell on the past. I must go on. Time will heal this pain, maybe your haunting memory will slowly fade away together with the crashing pain. For I have to let you go...Let go of the questions...Letting go is all I should do for I know in my heart God has a purpose why He allowed this to happen, He is there to help me, He won't hurt me...Maybe God has much better plan for me that He let me experience such painful situation... Everything happens for a reason...

“One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through... None of us can be in the present and the past at the same time, not even when we try to understand the things that happen to us... Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away... Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life. Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust. Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.” p.coelho

" love "

2008-10-07T15:01:00.000-07:00

Because of you, in gardens of blossoming flowers I ache from the perfumes of spring.

I have forgotten your face, I no longer remember your hands; how did your lips feel on mine?

Because of you, I love the white statues drowsing in the parks, the white statues that have neither voice nor sight.

I have forgotten your voice, your happy voice; I have forgotten your eyes.

Like a flower to its perfume, I am bound to my vague memory of you. I live with pain that is like a wound; if you touch me, you will do me irreparable harm.

Your caresses enfold me, like climbing vines on melancholy walls.

I have forgotten your love, yet I seem to glimpse you in every window.

Because of you, the heady perfumes of summer pain me; because of you, I again seek out the signs that precipitate desires: shooting stars, falling objects.

pablo neruda

if you are sleepless

2008-10-07T14:04:00.000-07:00

9 WORDS WOMEN USE

2008-09-11T14:09:00.000-07:00

1. Fine: This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

2. Five Minutes: If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

3. Nothing: This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.

4. Go Ahead: This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!

5. Loud Sigh: This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to #3 for the meaning of nothing.)

6. That's Okay: This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

7. Thanks: A woman is thanking you, do not question, or Faint. Just say you're welcome.

8. Whatever: Is a women's way of saying F*** YOU!

9. Don't worry about it, I got it: Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking "What's wrong?" For the woman's response refer to #3.

Paradox Of Time ( A Must Read!!!)

2008-09-01T13:37:00.001-07:00

We have bigger houses but smaller families;

more conveniences, but less time.

We have more degrees but less sense;

more knowledge but less judgment;

more experts, but more problems;

more medicines but less healthiness.

We've been all the way to the moon and back,

but have trouble in crossing the street to meet our new neighbour.

We built more computers to hold more copies than ever,

But have less real communication;

We have become long on quantity,

but short on quality.

These are times of fast foods but slow digestion;

Tall mean but short characters;

Steep profits but shallow relationships.

It's a time when there is much in the window

But nothing in the room.

His Holiness the 14th Dalai Lama.

twentyfour (24)

2008-09-01T10:25:00.000-07:00

It's now BER month... Christmas is on the air, ,but before Christmas, It'll be my 24th birth day, I'm getting older but wiser in a way with life's blessing through experience. Here are the 24 things I've learned and trying to live up. As I go on with my journey. This entry is in no particular order.

1. God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

2. Blood is thicker than water.

3. Expect the unexpected and also hope for the best but also expect the worse.

4. Men are from mars.

5. True friends are few, they're the one who listens even though they don't give any advice, wants the right thing for you even if that means you will get hurt in a way, finds time for you to bond, understands every side of the story. Know each others moods, considerate and patient. and most of all always there to support you in times of deep need. I thank God I had them we've been friends for 14 years...

6. Life is short...treasure those who treat you good, forget those jack ass, inconsiderate assholes or bitches who makes you feel low or hurt you in ways they find funny. And take chances, you'll never know what lies ahead once you didn't take a chance. It wont kill you.

7. Learn to let go...Right now I'm on the part of my life where I wish that I could turn back time and ignore people, no not people honestly it's just one person and that person is someone who I trust most, love whole heartedly tried all my best to understand him and be patient by all the inconsiderate things he'd done, I even stood by him when my mom says negative things about him. I'm hopeful he'd change his way's, but all my effort ended up unappreciated, he even thought I'd insulted him. He's my first love, damn the pain!! He doesn't know how I love and respect him but when it comes to me, he usually ignores me, he doesn't find time to spend with me, I even had to beg just for him to travel 30 min to 1 hrs for us to see each other. I prayed to God that one day he will realize my worth, because if you love someone so dearly you'll sacrifice a day or just an hour or two so you could have a quality time together, is that too much to ask? I'm tired of being the one to do all the effort and sacrifices I pray one day he will feel remorse, to all the tears I cried and pain he caused. I'm just being honest...

8. Always be considerate to other peoples feelings, don't be selfish. No man's an island, but quite moments are to be observe to reflect to your life.

9. Respect is earned. And patience is a virtue.

10. What goes around comes around, what goes up must come down. Karma comes in good and bad ways. And Bad karma comes in hundred folds, so do good, apologize once you offended or hurt others, because doing so won't kill you. It will make you feel better.

11. Don't stop learning, read educational books, watch shows that will make your mind learn new thing, informations and make you vigilant. Laziness will make your life useless.

12. Sleeping is good, but too much sleep doesn't make sense, when we die we well sleep for eternity, so try new thing while we're alive. We were given chance to live why waste it appreciate life and respect life, also respect animals too people who are unkind to animals have the tendency to be rude to people too.

13. Love your self!!! and remember with all the pain you're going through because there are people who are unappreciative to all you've done or painful thing is that person just doesn't love you, there is always hope it doesn't ended up good because or maybe you are just not meant to be.

15. I have learned that experience is the great teacher.

16. Pain will always be a part of our existence.

17. Loving someone is giving them the right to hurt you too, to love is a decision, our head ans heart should work together. Based on what I'm going through, letting go will make things better, accept that you've been hurt, and in pain mourn, cry...And after a while breath and live your life in a transformed way appreciating that you became mature...

18. There will always be jerks, inconsiderate assholes and bitch, that can't or hard for them to understand or simply so selfish that it's only there self they think, just understand them, be transparent and let God's hand work for in every deed they have done, it will always come back to them. Then forgive....

19. Appreciate LIFE... what we feel is our choice, be thankful that we are blessed to wake up in a new day...Hope and spread love...

20. If ever you feel to have to turn your life into a new chapter, or you need to do something that, there is this energy that makes you move...Pray for guidance, for God works in mysterious ways.

21. Related to number 7........... Let go of things that makes you miserable, I learned it the hard painful way.....I'm single now, I'm on my way to recovery, it's hard and painful, but I'll make it, there are others who has much problem...It's also Gods way of saying that I have someone much better for you, grow and let my plan's for you come...

22. Everything happens for a reason...

23. and 24.

As we grow, we will go through changes, expecting lots of surprises, in our time that everything happens so fast we must always remember that things that is meant for us will always happen it will take time but once it's fulfilled we will feel contented. Things that are worked hard to, things that are done with great love and sacrifices will result to a strong foundation, but also once it rains it pours its on the person to commit on the things decided to stand by to...

So to my self....for my self.... Happy 24th Birthday (in advance :-D)....

when a girl...

2008-09-01T10:16:00.000-07:00

spoken words

2008-08-22T11:09:00.000-07:00

"I am a woman of deep and lasting passions, wild and impetuous, more often than not ruled by my heart instead of my head. I was not made to live tamely, but to seize it with a vengeance and bend it to my will. My emotional heights are rapturous, my depths all too filled with despair. Yet now that I see all that life has to offer, I am glad I am not other than what I am"

veronica franco

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You were supposed to love me
When the moon got too dim to light the night sky

I live within the box of that promise
Somehow float within the flimsy exterior your intentions created
Hurt in the memory of a dream that never existed

The sun descends and my heart grows black with the sky
Pumps to the beat of an empty space
Where anatomically yours was supposed to exist

Were you ever really there
When the night grew dark

My hand felt your skin
As your fingers tightened around its fragile stems
Strangled them so tightly
That the mystery could no longer breath

Your arms did hold me
Like veins they entangled me
Surrounded me with their needs
Pleaded with me to never leave

My legs wrapped around your hips
And I swear I felt you enter my soul

You weren?t supposed to leave me
Within the memory of a promise that floats upon a pitch black dream

______________________________________________________________

She Remains
She remains
Lingers within the air that surrounds
Bodies left hungry for each breath
In which she is consumed

She remains in endless corners
Of remorseful hearts
Left frozen in the memory
Of her once heated stare
Her words echo through pale minds
That denied the colors of their truth

She remains
In intangible places
As scars upon stubborn souls

The only beauty they had ever known

An aroma once filled the rooms
In which they need now dream to inhale

She remains in only memories
She cannot sleep to avoid

Love not in vain
She does remain
In memories
Even if they are hers alone
Mechanics of a broken heart
An engine that's been torn apart
A useless charcoaled empty wedge
With wires burning at their edge
Marks of a self performed ligation
An attempt to avoid loves impregnation

Though the juice is its feed
Through holes it does bleed
Pierced by the cruel
Misuse of its fuel

Oil covers the wings
Can't flap when love sings

Pulled at the roots, each time enchanted
Until it was realized; only self can replant it

A dream of truth still not realized
Doubts reassured, and then goals resized

Can't rev up an engine that's battered and worn
With too many patches applied and then torn

Ticker weakened and too ill
To allow another spill
Of love and all it lacks to enter
To once again allow a dismember
Of the organ that still does pump blood
With time reigniting a once fragrant bud

michelle audrey

It's All In The Head

2008-07-23T08:47:00.000-07:00

Common Cause OF Headache Pain

A headache is pain or discomfort in the head, scalp, or neck. Serious causes of headaches are extremely rare. Most people with headaches can feel much better by making lifestyle changes, learning ways to relax, and occasionally by taking medications. According to recent research, a size able and growing number of headaches are being caused by the very medications taken to alleviate them — and the problem is far more common than scientists had realized. Half of chronic migraines, and as many as 25 percent of all headaches, are actually “rebound” episodes triggered by the overuse of common pain medications. Both prescription and over-the-counter drugs may be to blame.

Patients begin by popping too many pills to deal with a migraine or a simple tension-type headache. When the medications stop, another headache follows, similar to a hangover. Sufferers race again to the medicine cabinet, and before long they are locked in a cycle of headaches and over medication.

At any given time, more than three million Americans are suffering from headaches they are inflicting on themselves, according to Dr. Stephen D. Silberstein, a professor of neurology and director of the Jefferson Headache Center at Thomas Jefferson University in Philadelphia. “If a patient’s headaches have grown markedly worse or more frequent, the problem is almost always medication overuse,” Dr. Silberstein said.

Signs of trouble include headaches that occur 15 or more days a month, according to the society, along with the heavy use of pain medications for three months or more. Overuse is defined as taking pain medication for 15 or more days a month.

“Overuse has less to do with how many pills you take to relieve a single headache than with how often you take them,” said Dr. Robert Kunkel, a headache specialist at the Cleveland Clinic Headache Center. “If you get more than two headaches a week and take pain pills for them, you’re at risk.”

The only way to know whether medication is contributing to your headaches is to stop taking them. Unfortunately, it can take as long as two months for medication-dependent patients to see an improvement.

Migraine sufferers seem to be especially susceptible to rebound episodes. Many doctors begin weaning these patients off painkillers by prescribing drugs to help prevent attacks, then gradually reducing doses of the painkillers used to treat acute episodes.

Several drugs have been approved to prevent migraines. The most recent is topiramate (Topamax), which studies suggest may lessen the frequency of attacks for up to 14 months. In addition, early trials suggest that Botox injected into the scalp can prevent or reduce the frequency of both migraines and tension headaches.

Tension headaches can frequently be prevented with stress reduction techniques and avoidance of certain triggers. With close attention to prevention, sufferers should not need to resort to painkillers often enough to risk rebounding.

Yet almost any kind of pain pill can cause rebound problems if used to excess. Among over-the-counter drugs, those with caffeine, like Excedrin, are the likeliest villains, studies show. Among prescription drugs, triptans are most commonly associated with rebounding, Dr. Silberstein said.

But in terms of both rebound and dependence, the most problematic drugs are those containing butalbital, a barbiturate. Two such medications, Fioricet and Fiorinal, have been banned in Germany because they so often led to medication-related headaches. Both are still prescribed in the United States.

Now that research has begun to spotlight the extent of the problem of medication-overuse headaches, more and more doctors on are on the lookout for signs of trouble. “Believe me, a lot of patients don’t want to hear that they have to stop taking their pain pills in order to get relief,” Dr. Kunkel said. “But for these kinds of headaches, that’s really the only solution.”

Once weaned from medicine, most patients show significant improvement after three months. They also learn their lesson and steer clear of overusing pain pills, research shows. In one study, 87 percent continued to report significant improvement two years after stopping overusing painkillers. Many headache sufferers have been praying for a miracle cure. Now it’s here, though it may not be what they expected.

Tension Headache

Causes:

Tension headaches are one of the most common forms of headaches. They may occur at any age, but are most common in adults and adolescents. If a headache occurs 2 or more times weekly for several months or longer, the condition is considered chronic. Tension headaches can occur when the patient also has a migraine.

Tension headaches result from the contraction (tensing) of neck and scalp muscles. One cause of this muscle contraction is a response to stress, depression, head injury, or anxiety. Any activity that causes the head to be held in one position for a long time without moving can cause a headache. Such activities include typing or use of computers, fine work with the hands, and use of a microscope. Sleeping in a cold room or sleeping with the neck in an abnormal position may also trigger this type of headache.

Other causes include eye strain, fatigue, alcohol use, excessive smoking, excessive caffeine use, sinus infection, nasal congestion, overexertion, colds, and influenza. Tension headaches are not associated with structural abnormalities in the brain.

Symptoms:

Headache
- Dull, pressure-like
- Generalized (all over, not just in one point or one side), worse in the scalp, temples or back of the neck
- Feels like a tight band or vise on the head
- Occurs as an isolated incident, or occurs constantly or daily
- Worsened or triggered by stress, fatigue, noise, glare
Difficulty sleeping

Treatment:

The goal is to relieve symptoms and prevent future headaches. Prevention is the best treatment. If possible, remove or control your headache "triggers."

Learn and practice stress management strategies. Some people find relaxation exercises or meditation helpful. Biofeedback may improve relaxation exercises and may be helpful for chronic tension headache.

Other preventive measures may include keeping warm if the headache is associated with cold, using a different pillow, or changing sleeping positions. Use good posture when reading, working, or doing other activities that may cause headache. Exercise the neck and shoulders frequently when typing, working on computers, or doing close work.

Enough sleep and rest, or massage of sore muscles can help reduce the chance that a headache will occur. Hot or cold showers or baths may relieve a headache for some people.

Over-the-counter analgesics such as aspirin, ibuprofen, or acetaminophen may relieve pain if the above measures are ineffective. An antidepressant or other medication may be advised for chronic headache. A nonsedating muscle relaxant like metaxalone (Skelaxin) helps some patients. In severe cases, the combination of butalbital and acetaminophen (Fioricet) or butalbital and aspirin (Fiorinal) may be helpful.

A headache diary may help you identify the source of chronic headaches. When a headache occurs, write down the date and time the headache began. Note what you ate for the preceding 24 hours, sleep pattern and amount of sleep, what was being experienced immediately before the headache, unusual stress or other circumstances, how long the headache lasted, and what made it stop.

Lifestyle changes may be required for chronic tension headaches. This may include adequate rest and exercise, change in job or recreational habits, or other changes.

Mixed Tension Migraine

Mixed tension migraine is a headache with features of both tension and migraine headaches.

Causes:

Migraine headaches affect millions of people. Tension headaches are even more common, affecting about 40% of the population. People with mixed tension migraine have features of both types of headaches and it is difficult to differentiate which symptoms are migrainous and which are tension related. Women are more commonly afflicted than men.

Common triggers for these headaches are hormonal changes, dietary factors, environmental factors, sensory stimuli, and stress. Examples include too much or too little sleep; missed or delayed meals; menstruation; alcohol; food and food additives; chemical and drug ingestion and withdrawal; light glare; and odors.

Symptoms:

Headache on one or both sides
- Throbbing pain
- May feel dull, tight, or like a band around the head
- Pain varies from mild to severe
- May get worse with activity
- May last from 4-72 hours (in some people, the headaches may occur every day)
Nausea or vomiting
Sensitivity to light or sound
Irritability
Depression
Sluggishness
Numbness, tingling, weakness
Neck pain

Treatment:

Certain things may cause your headaches. For example, some people get headaches after drinking alcohol or eating certain foods. These are called triggers. You should identify your specific triggers and avoid them as much as possible.

It is important to follow a healthy lifestyle, get plenty of sleep, and to avoid stress as much as possible.

Over-the-counter medicines such as ibuprofen and acetaminophen may help. If your headaches are severe, your doctor may prescribe other medicines.

If your headaches become frequent and interfere in daily functioning, your doctor may prescribe medicine to take everyday to prevent them. Such medicines include beta blockers, calcium channel blockers, anticonvulsants, and antidepressants.

Stress

2008-07-23T07:54:00.000-07:00

“It’s probably just stress.” How many times have you uttered those words to yourself to dismiss a headache, pain or illness?

But stress is not “just” some benign complaint. Instead, it’s a powerful risk factor for disease, notes a recent commentary in The Journal of the American Medical Association. The article focuses on evidence showing that stress is linked to an increased risk for heart attacks, depression, cancer and the progression of H.I.V. and AIDS. Notably, an accompanying article in JAMA notes that workplace stress may be as bad for your heart as smoking and high cholesterol. And marital strife also poses a major risk to your heart health, the Archives of Internal Medicine reported this week.

One reason stress is such a problem is that it triggers bad habits like overeating, lack of sleep, smoking and drinking. “It’s hard to pull stress apart from other things, because stress triggers many of the standard risk factors like smoking and poor diet,’’ says Sheldon Cohen, psychology professor at Carnegie Mellon University and lead author of the JAMA commentary. “But it may be really quite an important predictor of health.’’

Stress also has a more insidious effect, releasing stress hormones such as cortisol that can weaken the body’s immune defenses. In a series of studies at Carnegie Mellon, researchers asked volunteers about the stress in their lives and then injected them with a cold virus. Most of the people who had reported very little chronic stress didn’t get sick — their immune systems rallied against the virus. But volunteers who said they’d experienced chronic stress for a month or longer were at far higher risk of falling ill.

Now there’s a growing body of research that shows the healthiest agers are those who are adept at shedding stress. In one series of German studies, researchers have induced stress in volunteers by having them speak in public while trying to solve difficult math problems. The task is typically tough on everyone the first time they do it, and saliva samples from volunteers show high levels of cortisol. Eventually, most volunteers get used to the task and cortisol levels drop. But some of the subjects are unable to shake off their excess stress, and the studies show their cortisol levels stay elevated.

Exercise is an obvious way to shed stress, but for some people daily stress relief comes in simple steps like making time to play with your kids, watching a favorite television show or taking a hot bath. Since the worst kind of stress is chronic, the key is to focus on stress relief every day, and not just on weekends, say stress researchers. To learn more about stress and the toll it takes on your health, one of my favorite health books is Robert Sapolsky’s “Why Zebras Don’t Get Ulcers.” The short answer is that zebras have a lot of stress because they have to flee from lions on a regular basis, but after the crisis they mostly just graze calmly. People, on the other hand, spend too much of their downtime worrying about the lions in their lives.

For The Heart

2008-07-23T07:06:00.000-07:00

Emotional and personality traits have long been associated with heart disease. Now researchers have shown that the combination of two traits — hostility and depression — may exact a particularly risky toll on the heart.

Depression and hostility commonly occur together, doctors say. But when a person is both depressed and hostile, the traits interact in a complex way to elevate inflammatory proteins in the human body, reports lead researcher Jesse Stewart, assistant professor of psychology at Indiana University-Purdue University Indianapolis. The combination of hostility plus depression appears to be as dangerous a risk factor for heart disease as high blood pressure or even smoking.

The findings, published in the February-March 2008 issue of Psychosomatic Medicine, examined emotional symptoms and inflammatory markers in 316 healthy men and women ages 50 to 70. Patients with depressive symptoms and hostility were more likely to have elevated blood levels of two inflammatory proteins, interleukin-6 and C-reactive protein. Both of those markers have been shown to be strongly predictive of future heart disease.

“In our study, we looked at depression and hostility simultaneously, and we found that the relationship of these negative emotions to inflammatory markers is more complex and much stronger than depression or hostility individually,” Dr. Stewart said.

Knowing that depression and hostility may exact both a physical and mental toll may encourage patients to seek treatment.

“There are of course mental health reasons to treat depression and hostility. Now we know there is a physical health reason — the link to cardiovascular diseases,” Dr. Stewart said.

http://well.blogs.nytimes.com/2008/02/11/for-the-heart-a-risky-emotional-duo/

Now it's FREE! Learning English In Fun And Enjoyable Way For Kids

2008-05-08T13:57:00.000-07:00

http://www.de.mingoville.com/content/view/13/29/lang,en/

Mingoville is a 100% online English learning course for kids all ages. Mingoville is known for its colorful and interactive stories, games, songs and various exercises that kids just love to play with in order to improve their English skills.

Mingoville.com is an online English learning course for kids all ages. Mingoville makes English learning fun and enjoyable. Mingoville is available in 32 languages and contains a number of fun exercises in reading, spelling and writing, grammar, games, songs, mobile fun and many more.

Words And Thoughts

2008-05-06T09:16:00.000-07:00

"Don't Complain"

"People Who Complain
Will Get More Of What They're Complaining About"...

Complaining is useless.

Instead of Complaining,

Imagine How You Want Your Journey To Play Out

Life Is A Journey;

It’s Up To You If You’ll Enjoy The Trip Or Not.

Remember: Experience is not what happens to you. Experience is what you do to what happens to you.

Each day, you’re moving closer to your destination.

Your destination is God.

Yet God is not only a destination, He also is your path.

So enjoy this journey called life.

At every step of the way, God is there.

May your dreams come true...

Fun Way Of Learning English For Kids

2008-05-06T08:58:00.000-07:00

100% online English learning course for kids of all ages. Known for its colorful and interactive stories, games, songs and various exercises that kids just love to play with in order to improve their English skills.

Educate kids English language by providing high-quality, result-oriented English learning on the Internet. We believe in the power of knowledge and our valuable goal is to deliver the best practices of education, entertainment and information technologies.

Maintain the position of high-quality, result-oriented e-learning solutions and online content provider through continuous value creation.

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Search Engine Submission Services

2008-04-28T11:54:00.000-07:00

• Search engine submission will ensure that you drive relevant traffic to your website, a way to promote a website the most integral part of any website marketing program. Once a website owner have taken the time to properly optimize there website, they need to focus on the submission of the website to search engines and directory so that web searchers can actually find it. Search engine submission is a very useful tool to take advantage of when your website is new, looking for inclusion or for some reason dropped out from search engine because of being offline for a while. To be really successful in the search engines you need a good link popularity.

• Crawlers is a program used by search engine, this program scour the internet cataloguing and indexing sites. You don’t need to continually push your website once is enough as you will be placed to crawlers crawl list. By fully utilizing the search engine you will receive many benefits including more inward links to your website, a higher page rank in goggle, an increase of traffic to your website with higher positioning in the search engines and increased online visibility also an increase in services and product interest.

• Generally there are two basic reasons why webpage or website should be submitted to search engine. First reason is to add an entirely new website because the site operator would rather not wait for search engine to discover them. Second is to have a website or webpage updated in the respective search engine. How a websites are submitted, this question will arise as soon as website owners will consider proper optimization in there website. To allow a webmaster to submit there website to a search engine there are two basic rules to be followed. They can either submit just one webpage at a time. Or, they can submit an entire site at one time with a site map. However just to submit the home page of a website is all a web master need to do. With just the home page, most search engines are able to crawl a site, provided that it is well designed.

• Getting listed doesn’t mean you will rank well for particular terms. It simply means that the search engine knows that your site exists. Directories are search engines powered by human beings; human editors compile all the listings that directories have. Getting listed with the web’s key directories is very important. Because there listings are seen by many people. Crawler-based search engines are more likely to find your site and add it to there listings for free if you are listed with them.

• Think of it like a lottery. Search engine submission is akin to you, purchasing a lottery ticket. Having a ticket doesn’t mean you will win, you must have a ticket to have any chance at all.

Researching for Link Partners for Search Engine Optimization

2008-04-28T11:45:00.000-07:00

• Link Partnering is a strategy developed to boost ranking and focus on good organizational scheme to exchange links that brings more traffic to your website. And increase the number of visitors, provided your website is made accessible to other sites. That’s why it’s important to get the right resources and the right knowledge, to get people to link to your site. The links pointing out to your website. That’s why it is a vital factor in web marketing to give higher importance to incoming link.. Incoming links are out side link from other websites.

• Link Building is a relationship building and it is considered the most important in search engine optimization. In order to help small business owners web sites rank better on the search engine it is important to build quality incoming link. It is important to keep in mind that there are some links that are good traffic that provide ranking boost. The number if links pointing to your site from other popular sites and the amount of traffic coming to a site helps the engine determine just how popular your site is.

• In link building we have a free editor based categorized directory also called reciprocal linking that provides an exclusive editor based resources for easy locating websites that trade relevant links. Link partners have been reviewed and approved by human editors to ensure quality. Link partners is a continuo’s resources helping you increase link and help increase website traffic and expose the web through natural reciprocal linking The ethical way that actively encourage webmasters and site operators to link for the end user and create organize categorized link. Therefore, a well connected link partner is an effective marketing strategy. Keep this in mind that when you are reviewing the site of a potential link partner take a look on the site on how they display the link. Is the link page visible and link to the other pages to the website Also if the link is haphazardly arranged your chances of getting traffic are also reduced. Because website goers judge it from the stand point of visibility and capacity to generate traffic.

Value Of Signature Linking

2008-04-28T11:16:00.000-07:00

The word signature came from the Latin word signare which means sign, a hand written depiction of some one’s name or other identifying mark that a person writes on a documents as a proof of identity and it acts as a seal. But when it comes to email and news group usage, there exist another type of signature which is dependent on one’s language. To be automatically appended users can set one or more signs of custom text known as signature block. This text usually includes a name, contact information, and sometimes quotation and ASCII art. A signature is that which gives an object or piece of information its identity.

Signature is a free, open-source producer of dynamic signature of livening up your email and news posting. There are a number of different encryption techniques to guarantee this livening up and level of security. We need to attach a digital code to electronically transmit message that uniquely identifies the sender. Just like in a written signature, the purpose of a digital signature is to guarantee that the individual sending the message is really who he/she claims to be. In electronic commerce digital signature is important and it is also considered as a key component of most authentication scheme. Digital Signature or Digital Signature Scheme is a type of asymmetric cryptography used to stimulate the security properties. Digital Signatures, like written signatures, are used to provide authentication of the associated input, called the message. Also being used to create public key infrastructure. Digital Signature are often used to implement electronic signatures, a broader term that refers to any electronic data that carries the intent of a signature but not all electronic signature use digital signature.

Most good system allows you to have a signature on your written post to message board, bulletin board or forum. Your signature appears every time you write or answer a question on the forum. What sets apart signature linking from other link is not the size or text of the link. Not even the direct relation on how the search engine sees the link. It all comes down to the fact that signature link are editable, especially on forum. If you want to have a high search engine ranking. You may consider the option to edit your forum signature given and you can update the URL using your signature. Linked email addresses and URL are often automatically recognized as a link. Recipient are thus provided a convenient means of linking to the senders email address or website. Simply by clicking on the highlighted links. By changing your forum signature to point to your new domain, you are giving your new site a lot of new publicity.

For the authentication of computer based information digital signature is being used. Especially that we are living in the edge of commercial environment. Through signature linking, the foundation for today and tomorrow’s secure electronic transaction with stronger and reliable signature is provided. Electronic signatures are executed to electric records then shall be linked to their respective electronic record to ensure that the signature cannot be excised, copied or otherwise transferred so as to falsify an electronic record. The nice thing about using the signature link is that an email scrubber will not see the signature as a traditional link associated with and contained in junk mail. The result more or less is that you can slip your URL under the radar. This is one of the hardest yet effective link building strategy as information sources that generate site visitors.

Significance Of Directory Submission In Link Building

2008-04-28T11:04:00.000-07:00

The marketing strategy of every online business is to be visible in building one way inbound links and to increase optimization strategy to your website. But driving traffic to your website and getting noticed by search engines is a complicated hard work.

Generally search engines consider your website important and rank it high in search engine result pages if other website link to your website. Link popularity refers to the number of links pointing to your website.

Link building direct traffic to your website, as users are likely to click on that link and visit your website, thus incoming link from other website would surely pay high dividends. And it ends giving your website wider search engine coverage. Also it would mean that your website stays ahead of competition. That’s why “Links” play a major role in determining your ranking position on various search engines.

On the other hand Directory Submission is considered the most popular and widely used form of earning back links from websites. Basically back link is what a directory submission will give a website owner it also refers to any link coming from any other website to one’s own website. Directory submission is a concept that website owners find popular and important in recent years and constantly they look for ways not only to increase the amount of traffic directly received, but also, possibly the core is to have a higher rank in different search engines. Directory submission is easy to do and is available in both free and paid form. Better placements and allowing more click through visitors from the directory to your site if you happen to choose the paid option. Free option provides a way for search engine spider also known as crawlers to find the website and index it in their own data base. Either choice website owners will make will bring an opportunity to increase their back links in an incredibly easy manner.

The most significant benefit of directory submission is increasing your popularity link, a measure of quality and quantity of incoming links to your site. Major search engine gives importance to links while evaluating the ranking of a site. Since directories are human edited search properties containing credible information are reviewed by human editors and compiled by subject category they identify good quality, exact and relevant directory. Such should be focused and topic specific. That’s why evaluation takes time and focus since it is done manually. With out directory submission the essence of a site in relevant directories cannot garner high ranking s in search engines.

Higher position in the search engine results, website indexed and click through traffic are these are the three significant benefits of directory submission so indispensable. As the owner of the site you don’t have to submit your site to the search engine instead they themselves will come and find your site. Indexing is very crucial to any website that wishes to achieve higher ranking since this is the first step to ensure visibility to search engine.

All have been said and done about the significance of directory submission in link building. It’s also proper to discuss the reasons why some submissions are disapproved. So that it would be proper and fair on both sides. A submission to directories doesn’t guarantee that your site will be listed. There are policies to be followed and to be considered in adding or rejecting sites. The following is a compilation of reasons why some editors disapprove site. First on the list is the site does not fit into the directory’s topic. Second having invalid description, third having under construction or incomplete section. Fourth the site contains broken links or broken pictures. And it is not in directory supported language or it takes forever to load. Overrun with advertisements, every page of site opens in a new window. Once you get confused you can’t even tell what they are selling. And it contains something that search engines frown on as hidden text. Member’s only” so cannot be properly reviewed.-, with excessive ads and pop ups. A broken links in the sites, pornographic photos and language. Affiliate sites with no physical addresses contact information listed on their sites. Sites that redirect to another site, ad sense scrapper sites. And lastly same titles and description as previous submitted site.

ANIMAL ABUSE AND ITS RELATION TO VIOLENCE

2008-04-15T08:00:00.000-07:00

Violent acts toward animals have long been recognized as indicators of a dangerous psychopathy that does not confine itself to animals. “Anyone who has accustomed himself to regard the life of any living creature as worthless is in danger of arriving also at the idea of worthless human lives,” wrote humanitarian Dr. Albert Schweitzer. “Murderers ... very often start out by killing and torturing animals as kids,” according to Robert K. Ressler, who developed profiles of serial killers for the Federal Bureau of Investigation (FBI). Studies have now convinced sociologists, lawmakers, and the courts that acts of cruelty toward animals deserve our attention. They can be the first sign of a violent pathology that includes human victims.

Animal abuse is not just the result of a minor personality flaw in the abuser but rather a symptom of a deep mental disturbance. Research in psychology and criminology shows that people who commit acts of cruelty toward animals don’t stop there; many of them move on to their fellow humans.

In 2007, the 'artist' Guillermo Vargas Habacuc, took
a dog from the street,
tied him to a rope in an art gallery, and starved
him to death.

For several days, the 'artist' and the visitors of
the exhibition have
watched emotionless the shameful 'masterpiece' based
on the dog's agony,
until eventually he died.

DOES THIS LOOK LIKE ART TO YOU

But this is not all... the prestigious Visual Arts
Biennial of the Central
American decided that the 'installation' was
actually art, so that
Guillermo Vargas Habacuc has been invited to repeat
his cruel action for the
biennial of 2008.

PLEASE HELP STOP HIM.

It takes a second to help put a stop to animal abuse.

sign the petition to stop this asshole, click the LINK below and make a statement!!

Boycott to the presence of Guillermo Vargas Habacuc

Just Read Me....

2008-04-11T11:34:00.000-07:00

The Beauty of Love

The question is asked, "Is there anything more beautiful in life than a boy and a girl clasping clean hands and pure hearts in the path of marriage? Can there be anything more beautiful than young love?"

And the answer is given. "Yes, there is a more beautiful thing. It is the spectacle of an old man and an old woman finishing their journey together on that path. Their hands are gnarled, but still clasped; their faces are seamed, but still radiant; their hearts are physically bowed and tired, but still strong with love and devotion for one another. Yes, there is a more beautiful thing than young love. Old love."

Portrait of a Man

I am but a creature of the earth, one among many;
I live to be loved and I give love in return.

I am understood; and I am misunderstood;
I am praised and I am scorned.

I long to cry out from within myself but none will hear,
For my voice is sealed within me.

Day after day I toil;
I dream of the place where work is no more.

There are sad times and happy ones, too;
There are days when everything goes wrong, But life must go on.

My life is but short and my death oh so near,
And yet I wonder
why I am here...

24 Things To Always Remember

Your presence is a present to the world.
You are unique and one of a kind.
Your life can be what you want it to be.
Take the days just one at a time.

Count your blessings, not your troubles.
You will make it through whatever comes along.
Within you are so many answers.
Understand, have courage, be strong.

Do not put limits on yourself.
So many dreams are waiting to be realized.
Decisions are too important to leave to chance.
Reach for your peak, your goal and you prize.

Nothing wastes more energy than worrying.
The longer one carries a problem the heavier it gets.
Do not take things too seriously.
Live a life of serenity, not a life of regrets.

Remember that a little love goes a long way.
Remember that a lot goes forever.
Remember that friendship is a wise investment.
Life's treasure are people together.

Realize that it is never too late.
Do ordinary things in an extraordinary way.
Have hearth and hope and happiness.
Take the time to wish upon a start.

AND DO NOT EVER FORGET.
FOR EVEN A DAY
HOW VERY SPECIAL YOU ARE !

Living in love and loving life

2008-04-11T09:53:00.000-07:00

A wise and understanding heart does not repay a hurt with a hurt. In doing so, the heart is diminished. Fissures form. Love leaks out. Every pain given in return for one received, changes the contents of the heart. It is no longer defined by love, wisdom and understanding. It is redefined by the bearers of hurt and hate, pain and prejudice, meanness and madness, sorrow and sadness. You give away control of your very own heart.

The despair of being hurt is healed by overcoming it, not clinging to the hurt and inflicting more of it on the world. When darkness is added to darkness, no one can see, no one can love. Everyone loses.

Love is not always warm and fuzzy. Sometimes it's the integrity we hold on to when we're tempted to strike back. Sometimes it's the honor that keeps us from exchanging the valuable contents of our heart for the harsh satisfaction of lashing back.

No, the way of love is not always easy, but when night falls, dawn is assured.

The integrity and honor of a wise and understanding heart, rises with the sun of a new day.

"Because you have asked for understanding to discern judgment. I have given you a wise and understanding heart." 1 Kings 3:11-12

black n white

2008-04-11T09:15:00.000-07:00

Forward

2008-04-08T10:09:00.000-07:00

This was taken last March 28, 2008 at Bacolod City. My brother graduated with the degree of B.S in Nursing at West Negros University. Me and my mom witnessed this affair and my father too in spirit. We are all happy, for finally after 5 years of struggling emotionally, financially and psychologically. He is taking one giant step in reaching his dreams and hopes with God's grace and our father. He wont be able to accomplish this with out Tito Big's help may God bless him and our heart full thanks.

I Made A Choice

2008-04-08T09:48:00.000-07:00

Loving a Police Officer

Watching my love put on his uniform,
I catch the glint off the badge which adorns.
Checking his gun, adjusting his belt,
Anguish begins to build like the other nights I've felt.

I know his job is to protect and to serve,
And my mind knows good men are what the force deserves.
But selfishness enters with matters of the heart and so why him?
To put his life on the line for so many unappreciative women and men.

But that one difference is all he wants to make,
From easing some abuse to giving a lucky motorist a break.
So when his hand reaches for the door to begin his night,
Only God knows what will be his plight.

I can only hope he knows of all my love,
And in another breath say a prayer to God above.
Keep him safe as well as his other fellow brothers,
May they all return to their wives, husbands, and mothers.

But in the night I know a siren will wail,
For the call of duty will always prevail.
Injustice seems to need no rest or sleep,
But instead constantly lurks in the shadows deep.

Nothing matches the feeling at the end of his work day,
When he reaches out to touch me in the bed where I lay.
Peace reaches my soul and I thank God again,
For bringing my love safely back to me, our family, and friends.

The Path I Have Chosen

There was a time when I wondered what I would do with my life, what I would be.
I thought about a doctor, a lawyer or maybe a teacher, but those weren't meant for me.
Each day I would search, trying to find what I was cut out for, but I never knew.
Then one day it just hit me, I realized what it was that I wanted to do.

Trying to find my destiny seemed to take forever, but now I know.
I am finally able to say, "I've chosen the path in which my life should go."
it's not the average career so I didn't have to go to college or take a test.
But I do have to give it my all, strive to do my very best.

The hours are long and the days are rough, and I have to admit I get very lonely at times.
But it's worth my while to see the safe return of my partner after a day of fighting so many crimes.
My partner’s job is to serve the people of the community and to protect each and everyone's life.
You see, my partner is a Cop…

There are times when I wonder how I will make it through the day.
But I know I can manage, I will find a way.
This is the path I've chosen, it's what I was meant to do.
I'll stand beside, "My Cop" and support him my whole life through.

Thoughts

2008-03-18T15:04:00.000-07:00

I have always been a creature of the night; countless times I have sympathized and empathize with the incurable insomniacs around the world. The darkness has always been my refuge, a bin into which I have nestled as I lick my wounds. I have wrestled hordes of unfulfilled promises. I have felt the stringing fangs of failure and frustration. Many times I have been forced to the brink of emotional exhaustion to a fraction of an inch from the end of the rope.

“ I have been to hell and back.”

Do Not Rush.

Trust.

And Keep A Quit Heart.

I think I find most help in trying to look on all the interruptions and hindrances to work that one has planned out for one self as discipline, trials sent by God to help one against getting selfish over one’s work--- one’s work for God—consists in doing some trifling haphazard thing that has been thrown into one’s day. It is not a waste of time, as one is tempted to think part of the work it is the most important part of the work of the day—the part one can best offer to God. After such a hindrance, do not rush after the planned work; trust that the time to finish it will be given sometime, and keep a quiet heart about it.

Annie Keary

2008-03-11T10:19:00.000-07:00

"I do my thing, and you do your thing. I am not in this world to live up to your expectations, and you are not in this world to live up to mine. You are you, and I am I, and if by chance we find each other, it's beautiful." -Frederick E. Perl

“We write to taste life twice, in the moment and in retrospection”- Anias Nin

Anxiety is love's greatest killer. It makes others feel as you might when a drowning man holds on to you. You want to save him, but you know he will strangle you with his panic. -Anais Nin

Do not seek the because - in love there is no because, no reason, no explanation, no solutions. -Anias Nin

Jargon English

2008-03-11T09:49:00.000-07:00

Vivienne Tan: The question is… what role did your family play to you as candidate to Binibining Pilipinas?

Janina San Miguel: Well, my family's role for me is so important b'coz there was the wa- they're, they was the one who's... very... Hahahaha... Oh I'm so sorry, Ahhmm... My pamily... My family... Oh my god... I'm... Ok, I'm so sorry... I... I told you that I'm so confident... Eto, Ahhmm, Wait... Hahahaha, Ahmmm, Sorry guys because this was really my first pageant ever b'coz I'm only 17 years old and ahahaha I, I did not expect that I came from, I came from one of the top 10. Hmmm, so... but I said that my family is the most important persons in my life. Thank you.

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The Janina fever. The nations favorite topic as well as on the on-line community. I thought beauty and brains should go along, where did brains go. Any how, I feel how it is to stand in front of a crowd. No I never joined a beauty pageant but in a literary-musical competition during high school and college yes I do have talents too hahaha... But its different once your in a beauty pageant and fear eats you or you lost focus thus like Janina you seem to Ahhhhhhhmmmmmmmm and hahahahahhahaha.

And Janina San Miguel is being compared to Melanie Marquez. But before that there are beauty contestants who represent there country who use there native language in answering questions.

But everyone deserves a second chance Janina should have her sweet revenge to all her detractors wwhehehehehahahhahha.... She have time to prepare her self or better yet study the pro's in a beauty contest.

Now back to Melanie Marquez

Host: Angie Dickinson has insured her legs for a million dollars.
Would you also do the same?

Melanie: No, of course not because I am contented with my LONG LEGGED.

Tadaaa.... That is the famous answer that made Melanie Marquez a winner. But now she's improving. Now why is Janina and Melanie being compared hhhmmmmmm maybe in there silly ways to express there answers since no one is dumb enough to join a beauty contest with a pea size brain... But based on her recent interviews shes improving. And besides she made a mark in history every one will remember.

Here are some of here quotable quotes that can relieve stress and make you smile.

My brother is not a girl; he’s a gentleman!

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That’s why I’m a success, it’s because I don’t middle in other people’s lives.

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Don’t judge my brother; he’s not a book.

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I won’t stoop down to my level.

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Hello? Bulag ka ba? Bingi ka ba? Are you dep?

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‘Yung STD, baka sa maruming toilet lang niya nakuha yan.

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Eh, ikaw ba naman, durugin ang ari mo...Pag di ka naman manutok ng baril.

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We are lovers, not fighters.

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Kapatid ko pa rin siya. We are one and the same.

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I don’t eat meat. I’m not a carnival.

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Sumasakit ang migraine ko.

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Ang tatay ko ang only living legend na buhay!

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I keep my crown in the voltage.

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Can you repeat that for the second time around once more from the top?

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I couldn’t care a damn!

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What’s your next class before this?

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Don’t touch me not!

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You! you’re not a boy anymore! You’re a man anymore!

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Bakit ang dami mong tanong? You're so questionable.

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You can fool me once, you can fool me twice, you can fool me thrice. But you can never fool me FOUR!

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Hindi ba kayo naawa sa kapatid ko...sa mga kwento nya? Di ba kayo na-PERSUAVE ng mga kwento niya? Hindi si Joey ang tipong mambubugbog ng babae...talaga lang malapit siya sa mga gulo...PRO-ACCIDENT kasi siya eh.

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Boy Abunda: O Melanie, paano na ang showbiz career mo ngayong magmo-Mormon ka na? Melanie: Ah okay lang 'yon Boy, kasi matagal na rin akong SEMI-RETARDED.

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They should talk behind the scene...

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(Answering the phone) Hello. Wait a moment. Please hang yourself.

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(Before Christmas) Well, I want to spend my holidays with my family most probably out of place.

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Why I will give my calling card, I'm not a call girl. (Her reply to a certain duke when the latter is asking for her calling card.)

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Eto na po ang pinakamaligayang pasko at manigong taon sa inyong lahat. (During her acceptance speech at a Metro Filmfest awards night where her bioflick, directed by her late father Temyong Marquez, won an award.)

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Period na talaga; wala nang exclamation point. (When asked on S-Files if her present husband, Adam Lawyer, is her Mr. Right)

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And the base of my observation is..(Showbiz Stripped, GMA-7)

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At a talk show after her break-up with Derek Dee, Melanie was asked if she had some words for Derek’s mother (whom she partly blamed for the separation). "Oo nga," said Melanie, "pero i-English-in ko para maintindihan niya." She looked into the camera and, with the peremptoriness of royalty, said, "And to you, Mrs. Dee, I have two words for you. Ang labo mo!"

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(When asked for a message to her daughter who was allegedly abused by their houseboy) "Don't worry little angel, big angel is here."

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(On what they should do to the houseboy who molested her daughter) "He should be put behind bar."

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(While waiting backstage during a noontime show after watching Nikki Valdez do her dance number) "Nikki, you're so galing. You should go to the States. You will sell hotcakes!"

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(While she's in Morning Girls With Kris & Korina promoting her movie with Aleck Bovick) "Please watch HIRAM starring Aleck Baldwin (referring to Aleck Bovick) and myself. It's DIRECTOR by Romy Suzara."

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(After giving birth, and an interview on The Buzz) "My answers have been prayered!"

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(To ex-flame Senator Lito Lapid) Hello...Huwag kang tumahol sa sarili mong bakuran noh! (In response to being misunderstood) You know, huwag kang tumahol like dogs.

Worth Knowing

2008-03-11T09:41:00.000-07:00

This Blog Entry is so well spoken and real I read this from one of the good writers in the community http://michellecallanta.multiply.com/

F*cK and GO!!!

No you really don’t care about her

You just wanna fuck her then go

And she let’s you do it to her over and over again

‘Cause when you’re inside her, it makes her hope

That you could fall in love again

That you could fall in love once again

That you would stay this time til the end

That it’s her you’ll want, no one else

And she has to hide every hint of wanting you

‘Cause she feels so sad, she’s just mad without you

But you’re so indifferent, with or without her

And she’s find it so hard to act cool

And make you think she doesn’t care

That she’s only playing, but she’s really praying

That you could fall in love again

That you could fall in love once again

That you would stay this time til the end

That it’s her you’ll want, no one else

She has to try to hide her love away

Try not to wanna see you everyday

So you’ll think she’s only playing, but she’s really crying

Oh, her faith has been worn, this game has been lost

If she would fall in love again

If she could fall in love once again

Should she stay next time, til the end

If it’s her he’ll want, no one else

No one else…

“I've been making a list of the things they don't teach you at school. They don't teach you how to love somebody. They don't teach you how to be famous. They don't teach you how to be rich or how to be poor. They don't teach you how to walk away from someone you don't love any longer. They don't teach you how to know what's going on in someone else's mind. They don't teach you what to say to someone who's dying. They don't teach you anything worth knowing.” Niel Gaiman

Very Good

2008-03-11T09:36:00.000-07:00

I’m not able to make any blog entry this month because I have a lot of things in my mind that writing makes me sleepy. And also I feel bad kind of depressed in some ways. But in writing I find an outlet to express why in certain parts of me is sad. I smile to every one, lets just say I have a cool approach. But I’m hurt with in…

Not that someone broke my heart or what… Let’s just say some things are just worth keeping. It’s between me and God…

But, on the lighter side. I happen to listen to Bo Sanchez, Soulful Food (or something like that, correct me if I’m wrong). Today, he shared about feeling very good about your self. I like his topic, that I’ll share it… so here it goes….

Every one is prone to temptation. But there are days that we can say NO and not give in to temptation. But most of the time, yeah… be honest y’all, we give in to them. But do you ever wonder why there are certain chances we can say yes or no to temptation.

We can say NO to temptation once we feel good about our selves. But once you have a low self esteem or you feel bad, angry. You happen to be friends with temptation… And come to think of it…The things YOU say or think. YOU make it happen. Now imagine, upon waking up…Instead of thanking God for another Blessing, you say to your self… I’m bad, I’m sad… I’m angry, things I do seems to be useless my friends make fun of me, I feel like I’m not appreciated…

That’s what you think of course for the rest of the day. That’s what you will do… But why not feel good upon waking up. There are people who aren’t able to wake up, there are people whose days are numbered that any time, they will just die… But you are blessed. This may be corny but this is true, I happen to experience one and still I got the hang of it, that I need to battle in with some skeleton on my closet…(Like every one is, who wouldn’t NO one’s perfect y’all)… but on what I’ve been through and still going through I deal with it by simply Praying and working on this issues one at a time. And focus on what I have now, my present life will affect on my future. And the past is a lesson learned.

Some times I feel like doing some things or decisions I need to make but I end up not doing it or making the opposite decisions. Which sucks and very frustrating on my self. Because there’s this voice in me that say’s… Hey you’ll fail, you can’t do it or you just can’t handle it… Or either I’ll be a big fool or every piece of negative words. But how will I know, if I’m not able to try. If ever I fail or get hurt well at least I tried not that I’m not good enough but failure is a sign that this are not for me. That God has His own plan for me. See how wonderful God connects things in our life. Even the most painful that you felt like being invisible sometimes. This are all just a test to prepare us to Gods most wonderful gift.

A Beautiful Prayer

2008-02-29T09:10:00.001-08:00

I asked God to take away my habit.
God said, No.
It is not for me to take away, but for you
to give it up.

I asked God to make my handicapped child whole
God said, No.
His spirit is whole, his body is only temporary

I asked God to grant me patience.
God said, No.

Patience is a byproduct of tribulations;
it isn't granted, it is learned.

I asked God to give me happiness.
God said, No.
I give you blessings; Happiness is up to you.

I asked God to spare me pain.
God said, No.
Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares
and brings you closer to me.

I asked God to make my spirit grow.
God said, No.
You must grow on your own! ,
but I will prune you to make you fruitful.

I asked God for all things that I might enjoy life.
God said, No.

I will give you life, so that you may enjoy all things.

I ask God to help me LOVE others, as much as He loves me.
God said...Ahhhh, finally you have the idea.

May God Bless You,
"To the world you might be one person, but to one
person you just might be the world"
"Even the word 'IMPOSSIBLE' says 'I M POSSIBLE' "

Why Pseudo Dramatic?

2008-02-28T06:16:00.000-08:00

I got my blog title from one of Philippines " new metal" genre band GREYHOUNDZ

There songs had deep meaning and it speaks of the reality of whats happening in one persons life, the things they undergo the pain, betrayal and motivation to make changes in society. The world is cruel there are some people who are selfish and pretentious some use other to gain personal benefits leaving the person who worked hard to achieve such recognition. That situation is rampant and it sucks...to survive in this kind one must learn how to fight not in a bloody or unfairly way but in a way where one stands to what they believe is right. To others it may be wrong or they just don't want changes because it will not bring them benefits. Here's the PSEUDO DRAMATIC LYRICS

Should i be guilty, too
As guilty as you
The best actress in hiding
Behind spaces and curtains
The drama queen evil conniving
Who cheated to feel vindicated
She won sympathies as tropies
For her superb well crafted stories
Only to tie me down to promise
She chose convenience over conscience

You can’t always hide the truth
There are eyes around watching you

She made me believe
I was too trusting
That she was far from here recuperating
But she made me feel
She was closer than ever
Doing her part and more than willing
I didn’t know she was there for another reason
To secretly watch me bleed
And go down to my knees
Held me by the neck without me knowing it
My loved one who saw me as an opponent

You can’t always hide the truth
There are eyes around watching you

I give you props for having such a creative mind
But shame on you for having
A heart nine times colder than mine
No matter who you have
What you have what you reach
Where you hide i lay a curse that
You be much bitter and sad than i
For the rest of your life
Good riddance to a circumstance
A deliverance from your sweet subtle tortures

Should i be guilty too

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You cant always hide the truth...Truth hurts but its the only way to feel inner peace, I do feel bitter and sad sometimes in some situation I experience in life. I also felt depressed, but looking back on what I have now I also feel blessed and thankful that what I go through, to others its worse.

Pre-Summer Trip To Guimaras Island

2008-02-28T05:45:00.000-08:00

Home of the Sweetest Mango's in the Philippines The Guimaras Island, also this Island have a lot to offer with its beautiful white sand beach's.

This was taken last February 23, 2008, after our work we went straight a head to Raymen Beach Resort at Alubihud Guimaras. We just went there unprepared, were on a rush or its just that we haven't had any complete sleep that we are like so high to relax :P

more pictures on http://www.coorie.multiply.com

I'm Not Surprise

2008-02-19T12:32:00.000-08:00

My brains officially crap and I've been sick these past day's and I'm not yet over my cough though I had taken medicines to get better, I think I'm not...see at the office its winter here...And the allergen's from the air conditioner is worse, we inhale it. And some agents who have a strong immune system doesn't notice it but they cough once in a while. And were in winter wonderland.

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The metaphor,"Men are from mars and women are from Venus" asserts the notion that men and women are as different as creature from other planet. Like for example women complains about problem because they want to acknowledge it, while men complain about problem because they want a solution.... But any way

When men is in a relationship, the early months with them is very sweet... Times that you get to talk and wish that time will stop when your together. But as you get too comfortable with each others company men sometimes neglect and consider there is a person they hurt when they do somethings, that they suppose to do but they should ask or inform there girlfriends.( For those who doesn't forget GOOD JOB and CONTINUE IT)

Men doesn't know this but sometimes they hurt the person they have a relationship with. By ignoring a day without communication (which sucks if that happen), they forget to inform there girlfriend there on a drinking session or they are out with there buddies,( and you have no idea what they are up too). "Is informing hard to do?!"... Everyone has cellphones why is it they intentionally or not do a simple task of telling there girlfriend.

Is it really mans nature not to do such task or its in the persons character?... Anyhow I know not all men does this, only some who are irresponsible or immature... To this one guy I am angry with I really hope he in one way or another would change his notions in some things that are simple to do yet he doesn't do it out of laziness bought by materialistic insufficiency.

I often i ask him they why's but he end up getting mad or change the topic or being a baby... Sometimes i think his bipolar or what, his like shit sometimes but instead of getting angry I talk to him (well text him asking why his acting strange like a women having a period) then he will tell all his heartaches at work and his financial problem (that he him self caused his break out)

And i will realize I was being made as his confidant or what ever, but still he should not act like a high school kid who doesn't have enough allowance to try vices.Hell his already 26 years old!!! I should be blamed too for being stupid in someways I end up being hurt most of the time, for him sometimes I see him as if he has a heart of stone.

Others say men have there own of grieving (yeah right...its alcohol) but out of experience its the women they hurt most of the time they just don't have the idea they do. When women are hurt they just keep it, but you can see it in there faces.

Once the glow of joy is changed to being serious, its either women wish you'll notice they are angry or you hurt there feeling, but most of the times they end up not being noticed (very sad).

Open your eyes guys its not that hard to do, try once in a while to be open to your girlfriends and be considerate. Day pass by so fast, you don't want to end up regretting they things you should and can do while theres time. Time is precious.

Marissa Belicena Gumban

2008-02-15T13:11:00.000-08:00

To our beloved "mama" on her Birth day...

M is for the miracle of Being.
O is for its origin in love.
T is for the tenderness of seeing.
H is for a home no wind can move.
E is for the ecstasy of living.
R is for the recklessness of giving.

Mothers rarely get what they deserve:
On them is dumped the dirt of our dreams.
Their joys must be ours, as they serve
Hard time, which only our love redeems.
Each day your love and faith my days renew;
Rejoice, then, on this day reserved for you.

Me and Toto Love You so... so... much...

Turning My Safety Off (a post valentine story 2)

2008-02-15T12:04:00.000-08:00

Opposite poles attracts...There are complementary differences and the diversity of difference that creates that creates the attraction...

He is the type of slightly introvert, quite but bossy, while she is extrovert, simple and most of the time considers the feelings of other people. He is the type who doesn't believe in giving flowers because it will wither, finds valentines day as a useless time to celebrate because its only once a year and usually that day are made for commercialism.

He loves to gamble, he smokes and drinks alcohol all the things she doesn't like her boy friend to have yet it turn out that most of the time things we ask from Him (God) is not what He had planned for us...

She hopes she will experience what it feels to be courted, but from the first day they met until now they're together, it was a shock when she told her family she had a boyfriend. Who wouldn't As a mother you never seen someone brought your daughter home after work to ensure shes safe.

But one day she introduced this guy as her boyfriend...They have a lot of differences he sometimes is stubborn, insensitive. But she sees in his eyes that somewhere in his life before they were destined to met he experienced pain.

having her in his life somewhat made him a better person, though change takes time she knew in him that he will. She may not experience courtship, or to be given flowers. But in his way he surprises her.

They both love to eat that what binds them, oyster and "sisig", they love the beach too... They share a helping hand in times of trouble...They some what can be described as a married couple though they only talk marriage for now is not yet the time to settle.

They love dogs too, with her he talks things he usually sit and drinks with his drinking partner, they always communicate by text and call...Why? He is a police officer he is one of the un lucky one ( as what she defines it) to be assigned at the province he works 3 days with 3 days off sometimes 1 weeks with 1 week off. He doesn't earn that much compared to higher officials, for he is a plain ordinary policeman but I'm proud of Him for its public service the does.

While she works in the city, a city girl but she ca do and adjust to every one and everything, her work requires her to stay awake at night and asleep at day. Before when she's back on the track to search for a job they always go out at night, clubbing, listening to the live bands but now he may not say it but She knows he miss those times so does she.

Yes they do fight not the physical one that she may be harmed. But it usually start in small things, he usually gets mad easily especially during there early months. They fought by ignoring one another's text message but after 3-5 days things will be back to normal. But the mistakes either of them did is learned.

They are on the stage where they still know each other well, they enjoy one another's company, being in-love and young...

But there's no perfect relationship...

She met his parents last January 1, 2008 what a good year to start, while he met her parents 2 or 3 months after there first meeting.

They've been together for 13 months already...

"Love is a decision not an emotion or feeling,that if made from the heart will outlast anything"...

Turning My Safety Off (a post valentine story)

2008-02-15T05:31:00.000-08:00

It's V- day yesterday a day where you will see red heart shape balloons, heart shape cakes, red roses and everything that co relates with the Valentines Day Celebration. Also the day before February 14 most people will ask you..."Do you have a date on Valentines Day?" and "What will you give your special someone on Valentines?"
Why not treat every day as a Valentines day?. Don't just settle for a once a year celebration of expressing your love and sentiments to the people you love. And that person you love isn't only your boyfriend or girlfriend, they also include your parents sisters and brothers even a friend.

Life is short don't let a day pass with out saying "I Love You" to your parents, why? You don't know if that day or the day after tomorrow you will discover one of them has cancer or they may not wake up, so at least before you sleep tell them you love them. Take my word I've been there, but before my father passed away I knew we loved him so much...

Valentine’s day really is is a Capitalistic ploy inculcated by our culture to further propagate the importance of Capitalism under the pretense that it is actually necessary for us to buy flowers and chocolates and have overpriced fancy dinners at fancy restaurants lest you be considered a social outcast, devoid of human emotion for lack of wanting to be sweet on what would normally be just any other day.

So... Make everyday a Valentines Day it doesn't matter if your single, committed, married being with your family and seeing them everyday is a blessing, having your friend around you is a precious moment...
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Okey...here's the part where I should make an introduction because...I would like to share a LOVE STORY of a couple whom from the first day they met until now they can't be separated. With the great differences they have in attitude and family background.

But opposite do attracts and yes love... sees beyond everything...

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This is the story of jule's and tata...

On December 21, 2006 tata was 3 weeks unemployed, she got suspended from her job for loosing a company owned document (well this is another story :P). It was exactly past 7p.m, arriving home from going with her mom to buy groceries she received a text message from one of her co-workers which works under her supervision asking her to go out and hang out with her and her boyfriend. Quite bored with staying at home and she said yes to her friend ( and with the permission of her mom off she go), with her friends generosity, tata was picked up at her house by her friend and her boy friend( of course). The tree of them went to that bar on a motorbike (yehey... free transportation and blower too :P)

So there they went boozing, when out of nowhere the treesom that tata expected turned five 2 of her friends boy friend came and joined us...Tata doesn't mind those guys she's busy gossiping about what a mess she left when she got suspended...But after five rounds of red horse(nyam...nyam...) one guy asked her useless questions a girl would know his interested with her(duh...)

Okey to cut the story quite short... This guy, the name is Jule's offered tata to take her home, but things got a little twist from that point, (actually not little its a gigantic decision in her life from what happen that night then on)
( to be continued)

Understanding Your Girlfriend

2008-02-07T05:58:00.000-08:00

• It’s an achievement to find a Christian Girlfriend, because as a man the greatest thing a side from salvation is that you could have is a beautiful dedicated wife who loves and supports you. Through her you will experience that giving is more fulfilling than receiving. Women are marginally intelligent than men on the average. Women have instincts that can guide and instruct that can give you insight that you wouldn’t have your self. .

• To succeed in most areas of life requires a bit of practice. And dating’s no different a bit of effort now means that things will go smoother and remember a good performance will build your confidence. It’s difficult to be attracted and attached to someone who doesn’t love them selves. This kind of individual brings negative impact. It’s very important to develop the whole areas of our being.

• Positive is attractive. Avoid things that make you feel rubbish; indeed we are all unique in all aspects of our personality. Two people react differently on the same problem learn to adjust in these circumstances. Use every opportunity to improve your interpersonal skills and don’t waste opportunities just because you don’t fancy someone. Good communication will build confidence. The trick to find out what makes the other person enthusiastic is to talk about things they treasure most.

• The highest compliment you can give a woman is your undivided attention, unlike men; a woman doesn’t always feel to conquer the universe, when we are cherished, protected and tended women feels motivated. And contentment is more likely to be found in quality of relationships rather than success and accomplishments. Women think differently when men prefer to discuss things one at a time to find solution. Women have the tendency to move from one thing to another just to get things of her chest. Unwittingly she dents your pride but really wants to help you improve since it’s a women’s instinct to nurture and improve and that includes our partner.

• This blog entry is not bias that’s why I also included some traits to know men. I really believe that there’s a child in every men. You may ask why, it’s because fact shows that men are more interested in objects and things rather than people, emotions and feelings. Ever noticed that asking for help makes men feel nervous? And you resist corrections like a plague…

• Apparently real men have no problem being corrected or being enlightened. In the dating stage or in a relationship the biggest complain women have against men is that they don’t listen. Instead men love to listen with a minimal amount of brain power. A woman on the other hand wants your full attention because no one can be fully attentive all the time.

• And with all the complexity men have against women and vice versa. This only proves that in building relationship both should accept there differences’, And the common idea both parties would agree is that we want a loving, caring , affectionate and tender who we can talk to have fun with, some one who will love us unconditionally who’s there for him/her yet also someone who he/she can be.

Five Facts

2008-02-06T12:26:00.000-08:00

I've seen "Happy Slip" on you tube here's the link http://www.youtube.com/user/HappySlip
instead of bloglog she utilized videolog (VLOG) thanks to you tube :-D
Now she has this entry its about 5 facts about yourself its interesting that I feel like doing it on my blog so here it is...
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1. Imagine having a lot of pair of shoes (I'm not boasting here... but this is a nasty fact about me or not any how) shoes from Stilettos, strap on sandals, boots, baby doll shoes and slip even rubber shoes. But most of the time you will see me wearing a strap on sandals its colored maroon and its metallic my mom bought it for me last Christmas 2007. That sandal looks like the pair the roman emperors wears the difference is that this favorite sandal of mine has a soft inner lining and its light weight oh...yeah very, very comfy...

2. I can't sleep with out my winnie the pooh pillow, that pillow is a gift from my close friend in college during our christmas part. I always hug it when I sleep and yes I'm a winnie the pooh maniac so what I have a child in me I even know all the characters in the 100 Acre Forest why? hahahaha I still watch the winnie the pooh cartoon series and collect any stuffs related to pooh bear. Back to my pillow... Yes I can't sleep with out it... Having it on my arms makes me sleep like a baby...with out it I'm like having a cat nap...

3. I love lotions, colognes and body baths, facial moisturizers which my mom thought me to use since I was in my elementry years I love my mom for that hehehe... I'm vain to my self lotions I put every day after taking a bath. i take a bath for 20 to 30 minutes yes honestly!!! I have a lot of beauty rituals. Thats why on my previous job I'm usually late and besides I don't like my previous job my employer are evil...Never mind them...I'm a fanatic of anti oxidants not that I'm scared of getting wrinkles its just that I want to age gracefully...

4. I don't do the laundry (except if its emergency and NOT THAT I"M LAZY) its because when i was a kid up to my adolescence people in our home don't let me do chores because my dearest grandmother won't allow it I was sick when I was a kid well until now (i have asthma its an inborn thing so no cure only prevention) so I brought with me such attitude. But I do run an errand once told to do so...But I love cleaning the house and our restroom oh...yeah...I clean my dad thought me I remember he always said " you live in this house and unexpected visitor may come what would they say and besides its us who will benefit once our house is clean" so clean I go...And when I clean...I really clean and not the cleaning that you will see dust under the sofa I mean really CLEAN...and in our restroom I'm a freak in scrubbing the tiles and the toilet done with my bare hands( I wear gloves "germs" duh...)

5. And last but not least I love taking pictures, memorabilia and I still collect Barbie doll...Pictures are memories fun and exciting to look at...Also I have a collection of bags but same as my favorite sandals I always wear one bag the blue one from NY&Comp. its small but it has a wide space inside and its a strong bag my tumbler even fits inside together with my make up kit.

Making 5 facts about me is not enough I have a lot to share for you to know me but being mysterious is still very interesting. Discover new things about me or even you ain't this fun. this is like self discovering or how well you know your self...

Now i must balance my chakra wwoooozzzaaaahhhhhhh

Why We Should Keep On Reading

2008-02-06T11:35:00.001-08:00

"I do my thing, and you do your thing. I am not in this world to live up to your expectations, and you are not in this world to live up to mine. You are you, and I am I, and if by chance we find each other, it's beautiful." -Frederick E. Perl

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The role of a writer is not to say what we all can say, but what we are unable to say.
Anais Nin

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"As you see, within our bodies each of us has the elements needed to produce phosphorous. And let me tell you something I've never told a soul. My grandmother had a very interesting theory; she said each of us is born with a box of matches inside us but we can't strike them all by ourselves; just as in the experiment, we need oxygen and a candle to help. In this case, the oxygen, for example, would come from the breath of the person you love; the candle could be any kind of food, music, caress, word, or sound that engenders the explosion that lights one of the matches. For a moment we are dazzled by the intense emotion. A pleasant warmth grows within us, fading slowly as time goes by, until a new explosion comes along to revive it. Each person has to discover what will set off those explosions in order to live, since the combustion that occurs when one of them is ignited is what nourishes the soul. That fire, in short, is its food. If one doesn't find out in time what will set off these explosions, the box of matches dampens, and not a single match will ever be lighted. If that happens, the soul flees from the body and goes to wander among the deepest shades, trying in vain to find food to nourish itself, unaware that only the body it left behind, cold and defenseless, is capable of providing that food."

---taken from Like Water for Chocolate by Laura Esquivel

why I blog

2008-02-06T09:55:00.000-08:00

I blog because I want to...Seriously this blog is intended for keeping up with what I have in my mind. Also to record on what I have gone through in life...